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rayray2883 @ 2009-09-11T19:36:00

2009-09-11T23:41:27Z

I couldn't be more unhappy with the way things are going right now.

rayray2883 @ 2009-08-05T00:54:00

2009-08-05T04:59:09Z

Ive been feeling really strange lately. I can't explain it. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. Something tells me I need to do something eccentric in my life soon. Something I wouldn't normally do. Some boundary I would never cross.

It could be just bad gas.

Tattoo

2009-06-21T22:39:20Z

My parents gave me the green light for a tattoo. I was thinking something like this on my calf...

I want some feedback before I go through with it...Ive gotten some pretty positive feedback so far...Just curious as to what some other people think.

This summer...

2009-05-18T00:52:08Z

Some things I wanna accomplish this summer.

Get in shape.
Beach all da time.
Six Flags.
Concerts.
Party Hard.
Baseball.
New Guitar.
New computer.
Meet some smokin' hotties.
Have fun.

Ignorance.

2009-05-01T18:57:09Z

As I was browsing youtube today, watching random videos of cool things, concerts and other various shit I came across this comment...

"I'm sorry to inform you, but if your listening to Metalica, Slipknot, and Killswitch Engage, then you are NOT listening to real music."

This really bothered me...

Ive always been very critical of music...I'll clearly state whether I like a band/artist or not...That is one thing. But to criticize some pretty fuckin' successful bands, and say that the songs they write...is NOT music. That's fucking ignorant. I can't stand that shit. There is not one person in this world that can say..."That is not music"...You can dislike, hate, despise, take a big shit on whatever fucking album, band, artist you'd like...Don't be a fucking mindless douchebag and say it's not music.

rayray2883 @ 2009-04-07T15:21:00

2009-04-07T19:27:49Z

Say what you want but...

Of all the things I am looking forward to this summer...A Blink 182 reunion is not one of them. I was never a fan...ever. Something tells me they will put out an album that will disappoint every fan. While those die hard fans will stick by their side and defend the album, they are simply in denial. They know deep down that the album is bad. I know this because Ive been there, with Dream Theater. I wanted Systematic Chaos to be good. I argued for it many times but it was hopeless. Blink 182 will go on to play a few shows around the country only to split up...again.

I just don't see the big deal.
Overrated in my opinion.

Summer

2009-03-30T15:48:05Z

4,000$ check- March 27th
Streetlight- April 17th...Maybe.
Sum 41- May 7th.
Parents in Florida- June 13th-22nd
The Offspring/Sum 41- July 10th.
Incubus- August 4th.
Rx Bandits...New Album/Show- ??
Tool- ??
Dream Theater & Zappa Plays Zappa- ??
*Edit*
August 1st- Tool/Arctic Monkeys/Tim and Eric ...all at one place...
Limp Bizkit (Thank you James)

These next few months are gonna rock my fuckin' socks.

rayray2883 @ 2009-02-14T22:47:00

2009-02-15T04:14:06Z

Something tells me it'll be a while before I'm happy again.

rayray2883 @ 2009-01-29T22:11:00

2009-01-30T03:46:55Z

...So back to college life.

It's really not as bad as I make it out to be. I mean, it's not great...but I'm just a baby. I'm never satisfied. But I think I'll be fine.
I'm starting to become really jealous of what Andrew has with his girlfriend. I'm usually not the jealous type, but for some reason I get angry when I see them together. Sucks. =\

Anyway getting back to college meant getting back to my daily routine. Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays are pretty sweet. I have one class at 1:40, which is stats. So that's a pretty easy class. Tuesdays and Thursdays are pretty awful. I wake up for an 8:45 class and have classes straight through the day. I usually just get a coffee before hand and suck it up. The classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays are so shitty. Globalization and Cultural Anthropology are my two worst classes. On Tuesday we have a test in Globalization. She is going to give us a map of the world and we have to name 55 countries on it. -_- I'm doomed.

Ive been pissing away a lot of my free time playing Fallout 3 and Guitar Hero when I should be reading for my classes. I told myself all winter break I'd get my shit together this semester. It's on my to do list. Along with make some friends here and a few other minor things.

In two weeks I have a week off that I'm looking forward to. I'm pretty excited to go home already. I also plan on making a trip to Binghamton sometime soon for a weekend. Ive been there a few times in the past year and it's always a good time.
Anyway...I'm going to go nuke my brain with some more video games.
Don't be afraid to text me sometime to chat ;)

Back at school...

2009-01-20T17:52:47Z

Well, winter break is over and I can honestly say it couldn't have been better. I wish it was a little bit longer but...it wasn't so...whatever.

Now I'm back at Albany. I got back yesterday...I unpacked, sat in my chair for an hour and remembered why I hate this place so much. I can't wait until May. I'm counting the days already. I won't be back here in the fall. I don't know where I'm going or what I'm doing with my life. Sucks. But I know I don't want to be here anymore.

End of semester...

2008-12-09T03:52:11Z

Today was the last day of classes for my third semester and Wednesday starts finals. Aside from a few weekends where some friends came here, this semester was by far the worst yet. 85% of it was spent sitting in this chair, alone, or laying in my bed. I considered for a while getting a new roommate because Andrew is so fucking wrapped up in his girlfriend, I hardly see him, but whatever. I guess I'm just jealous. Right?

I don't plan on studying for finals, because I don't care enough.

Really excited for winter break. I want to as much as I possibly can. I want plans every night. January 6th-8th I'm going to the Poconos with some friends to go skiing. We rented out a house for the two days and I am so pumped for it.

My Christmas list is non existent. This is the first Christmas I have ever had where I really don't want anything......Well, an Acoustic Guitar would be nice. But that's a long shot.
I still don't have New Years Eve plans. I want some. Something as epic as James' New Years party last year would be great.
The one thing I'm not looking forward to, is going to back to pushing carts during the frigid winter and disgusting snow storms at Target. I need money though and it'll get me back in shape.
Pinkerton is getting me through college. It never fails to put a smile on my face. Every single song makes the hairs on my arm stand up. It's rare that any one song will do that to me. But for an entire album to give me that feeling?

When I'm sitting in class...the right thing to do would be sit there attentively, listen to what the professor is saying, and take good notes. Instead, I have this terrible habit of analyzing people, and stereotyping them. I look at that persons hair, clothes, backpack, accessories etc... I decide whether I would like them or not. Whether I can see myself hanging out with them. This is a fucking terrible thing to do, especially here. 90% of the guys are wearing sweatpants and a UAlbany hoodie and a large majority of the girls are decked out with make-up and wearing fucking Uggs. It's a horrible way of making any friends and it's fucking ignorant of me but I can't help it.

By the way...Uggs look stupid.

Thanksgiving

2008-12-01T04:03:50Z

This thanksgiving break was pretty great. I finally just got to relax and hang out with friends that I like.

Wednesday was Allen's. Bon fire and turkey. Me, Nick and James met Mahoney at 24 hour bagels where we talked about everything from spiders serving us pizza to waking up one morning to everyone being a skeleton. We were there until almost 5 AM.
Thursday was Thanksgiving. I laid in bed, watched The Cable Guy, Die Hard 2, and National Treasure 2. Ate some good food.
Friday I went to Bob's with Nick and Mark. I almost bought a hat. But I didn't. Ate Taco Bell.
Saturday was pretty sweet. Starbucks with Melissa early which was nice. Then went with Marisa to get her tattoo, then went to Panera which was OK. Went bowling Rouse. Then went to James' house for the remainder of the night where I embarassed myself singing Keep Fishin' by Weezer.

Oh, we watched Forgetting Sarah Marshal. And it was fucking awesome. Mark Mahoney approves and so do I. I highly recommend it to anyone with some decent sense of humor.

Today I made my trek back here, to Albany. I hate it. I'll be coming home December 16th sometime around 8pm. Make some plans with me.

I'm having tea brb.

rayray2883 @ 2008-11-18T16:13:00

2008-11-18T21:28:31Z

I know this can be a silly and pretty lame comparison, but life can be like a fuckin' sine wave. I have a great day, then the next is shitty, then another awesome day, then yet another shitty day. It gets so frustrating. Being sad is sucha shitty feeling.

Any way this past weekend was my birthday. It was ...pretty fun. Friday, I went out and just as I was starting to have fun we get kicked out of the bar. Apparently the cops decided to raid all the bars in Albany that night. Woo. So anyway ...we walked around for hours and found nothing to do so we just came back to campus. I was apparently pretty drunk so I guess it was ok...

Saturday, Danielle came for my birthday, which was pretty sweet. She knitted me a hat which I thought was pretty awesome of her. We went to the mall and the movies with the intention of seeing Saw V but instead we the movie Changeling. Honestly, one of the best movies I've seen in a while. I had no idea what to expect, but it was great. So damn emotional, but great. I almost broke down crying in the middle of the theater. I highly recommend it. After that we went to a friends party which was pretty fun, a bit crowded but it was ok.

This week has been pretty crappy though. I'm sick of laying in my bed, listening to music, hoping someone i/ms me or texts me or something so I have someone to talk to. That alone feeling is the worst. I know it wont go away either until I go home, which will be in a week, so hang out with me, please.

This weekend, Melissa, Marisa, James, and Nick are coming to Albany. Ive been looking forward to it for a while. I haven't seen any of them in a while and it's gonna be fucking great.

I'm done complaining, thanks for listening.

Lets do it.

rayray2883 @ 2008-11-11T23:30:00

2008-11-12T04:45:28Z

I just want to enjoy life again......fuck.

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2008-11-06T20:05:27Z

Lately Ive been listening to the Weezer album, Pinkerton non-stop. It seems to be the only thing that puts a smile on my face. It puts such a good feeling in my stomach for some strange reason. Reminds me of home.

Counting the days until this semester ends.

I can't help but live my life in a puddle of regrets.
It's unhealthy.
But whatever.
I guess I can be a dick sometimes. =\

Fuck politics.

2008-11-05T15:24:32Z

I never want to hear or see the word 'vote' again.

So..

2008-10-23T19:53:59Z

Alright, so these last few days, Ive realized something pretty important.

I think the reason I've felt really shitty these past two weeks or so is two reasons. The first reason being, all of last year, if I had absolutely no friends to hang out with, Andrew would just about always be here, and we could always find something to do. But now he's got a girlfriend. So he's almost never here which is kinda shitty. Being alone is shitty. The second reason is pretty much my fault. In the past year I've basically stereotyped everyone here at Albany to people I don't want to hang out with. Therefore I don't have many friends to hang out with mostly because I just compare everyone to my friends from high school.

But...
Somewhere in between playing Castle Crashers, the flurry of ridiculous comments on one facebook picture and looking at pictures from the summer, I realized that although I may be sort of miserable here at college, I honestly have the greatest friends I can possibly ask for back at home. I have absolutely no reason to feel so shitty all the time. The past three years of my life minus being at college have been by far the best. Yeah I miss high school, and yeah I hate college but it's just something I have to deal with. I'm done crying about it. I know that every winter break and every summer will be fucking great.

Anyway. I've been trying to actually get some work done and up my grades. I have all this time so I'm actually gonna make use of it. I'm also going to start running and hitting the gym every now and then. I need to be doing things that are more constructive and I need to get out of my dorm room more.

This weekend my parents are coming up for parents weekend which should be good. That means good food and grocery shopping for the first time in like a month. They almost didn't come because my Grandma is still in the hospital =[. The doctors can't find out whats wrong with her and it sucks pretty bad. From what I hear things have been pretty crappy at my house lately. But I'm glad my parents can find some time to get away from there for a weekend.

I wanted to go home for Halloween for James' big bash but there is no way I can get home. The bus is like 70 dollars and I wouldn't even get home until like 9pm on Halloween so it wouldn't really be worth it. Whatever.

I'll see you all Thanksgiving break.
Unless you come to Albany.
Do it.
It'll be fun.
I promise.
K.
I'm Done.

Binghamton.

2008-10-20T19:18:41Z

So, last weekend I went to Binghamton for the second time this semester.
Both times I went, I was in a much better mood then I ever am here at Albany.

It just reminded me of how retarded I am.

Whatever

2008-10-15T19:41:12Z

I don't know how many people will actually see this journal entry but I haven't posted a real entry in ages.

My life pretty much can't get any worse right now. College sucks. I lost all motivation to do well in any of my classes. I just don't care enough anymore and it sucks. Albany sucks. It's so boring and I'm gonna transfer soon. I spend the majority of my time here sitting in my room alone, watching tv. It's just been really fucking depressing. When I was home for the summer I was happier than Ive ever been. I come back here and a month later I'm miserable.

I have absolutely no plans for my future. I don't know what I'm gonna do when/if I graduate from college. Nothing interests me. It sucks seeing all these people with a big plan and knowing exactly what they want to do. I wish I had some sort of goal...

I was thinking the other day of how much different my life would be right now if I had just went to Binghamton like I was suppose to. Whatever. It's a little late to be thinking about it now.

Nobody likes a cry baby.

Last weekend some friends were here to see Streetlight and it was great. Fear Nuttin' Band opened for them and they were sick.
Went to Fuddruckers the next day and it was great.

I just can't wait for the semester to be over. It's so shitty being here. Take me back to high school.

rayray2883 @ 2008-09-29T14:03:00

2008-09-29T18:03:53Z

It's time I got back to the good life.

rayray2883 @ 2007-07-22T14:09:00

2007-07-22T18:21:49Z

My life became very repetitive until recently.
I would wake up around 12. Go to work. Come home and hang out with the same few people almost every night.

This past week has been good. Melissa has been at my house until like 2am a few times. We just played guitar hero, watched some tv, some funny videos and played some bloons. One night the other Melissa and Jackie came over and hung out with us which was pretty fun.

On Wednesday I hung out with Harris, Rouse, and Lee which was a change of pace. We went to Dunkin' Doughnuts and then down port where we met Nick Bell and Craig. That was a fun night.

Thursday Me, Chris, Craig and Andrew went to Applebees. After that I went back to Chris' house and slept there.

Friday was Allen's party which was fun. I hungout with Melissa before hand and we did the same thing we always do. Guitar Hero. We went to Allens around ten. It was good. There wasnt a lot of people there which was nice. Around midnight I left with a bunch of people to Wal Mart and Borders. We yelled the ending at people. It was enjoyable. After that I went to Harris' again and slept there.

Saturday was my last day at Target. My whole shift was a joke. It is nice knowing I have the rest of the summer off. After work I headed to Billys grad party for a little bit. It was pretty fun. The food was good. After about an hour or two I left to go Nick's.

Today is Joanna's grad party and a BBQ at Craigs tonight.

Life's been pretty good to me lately. Summer is good.
Going to see Muse on August 6th which I'm pretty pumped for.
Schism the Tool Cover band is on August 16th.

Things are going good.

rayray2883 @ 2007-07-03T10:54:00

2007-07-03T15:00:19Z

Summer so far:

Die Hard was fucking awesome.

Transformers was fucking awesome.

New guitar.

Parties.

Bowling League.

No beach.

Not much of Target.

A lot of money.

2 Best friends gone.

Being down.

Feeling shitty.

Thats pretty much it.

rayray2883 @ 2007-06-16T19:57:00

2007-06-17T00:00:20Z

Kind of sick of being the person people hang out with only because no one else is around...kind of like a "back up friend"

Last day.

2007-06-14T17:27:17Z

Last day of High School was....uneventful.
Stupid me went extra early for some sort of BBQ.
It sucked. I regretted it immediately when i arrived and there was three people.
Anyway...the last day wasn't really fun. I signed people's yearbooks that I've never really spoken too. I have paragraphs from people who I haven't spoken to in years. I'm trying to look on the bright side because after graduation I wont see these people for a long time. The best part of the day was Tom Dunne almost fighting someone and yelling at Dr. Piccone.

Yeah so..two days into summer and I haven't done anything. I really hope this summer isn't like the past two days. I'll go crazy. I feel like it is going to be the same thing almost everyday. Wake up at 11, play video games for a few hours, work at 3. Come home around 7. Sit at my laptop waiting for someone to call me or i/m me with plans. Not fun. I try to make plans with people but I get home from work and everyone already has plans. Fucking sucks.

Anyway, prom is a week away....and I'm not going.

I hate PETA

Ive been on youtube non stop the past few days watching a lot of videos. Fun way to spend my summer nights.

Someone call me.
Please.

rayray2883 @ 2007-06-08T16:16:00

2007-06-08T20:24:33Z

I handed in my last text book ever today.
Oh and failed a math final and bio final.
But it's alright.

Ive been sick.
Now I'm better.

Kind of wish I had like to at least 4 more friends to hang out with over the summer.

Speaking of summer.
It's time for that good old to do list.

-See a lot of movies.
-Get a lot of graduation money.
-Go to a met game or a few.
-Take a PAID week off from work and go to the beach every day that week.
-Go to the beach a lot.
-Jam.
-Peanut Butter.
-Spend all of my money.
-Go to Six Flags.
-See Dream Theater and meet them.
-Hang out with everyone.
-Go to Guitar Center for 2 hours and play every guitar there.
-Run and get in some sort of shape.

That's it.